• blockbuster izlemeyi biraktim, daha kucuk butceli filmleri izlemeye calisiyorum... veya dusuk butce degil de cogunlugun begenmedigi filmler diyelim... iste the international'in da dvdsinin reklamini gormustum televizyonda, bi indireyim dedim... clive owen oldugunu biliyorum bi tek, bi de hafif aksiyon var diye tahmin ediyorum cunku dvd'sinin ustunde silahla pozu var... her neyse, izliyorum falan naomi watts da var film iyi gidiyo... sonra bi yerde 'ahmet sunay' ve 'turk' laflari geciyor... ben 'lan? ehe ehe turk dedi lan' triplerini sktir edip izlemeye devam ederken filmin sonlarina dogru bu laflar bir daha geciyor ve hic umulmayacak bir anda lapak diye eminonu'nun goruntusunu veriyor helikopterden... ben zaten sehrime hasret kalmis bir sekilde agzimdan salyalari silerken bildigin haluk bilginer giriyor ortama ve muhtesem ingilizcesi ve karizmasiyla ortaligi dagitiyor ve film bildigin istanbul'da, kapalicarsi'nin tepesinde, catilarda bitiyor...

bi de baya bi once izledigim taken var... bu oncekinden daha dandik biraz ama tirt bi film
degil... liam neeson var... hafif kliselik havasi var... kizi kacirilan eski bi ajanin herkesi
gebertip kizini kurtarmasi... film bu ama begendim ben... bazi rahatsiz edici sahneler var...
dovus ve tum aksiyon sahneleri cok mantikli... ve acaip gercekci...

• theory of a deadman diye bi grup var.. hard rock bunlar ama bad girlfriend, all or nothing gibi super sarkilari var...
• shinedown var, bunlar da hard rock ama bunlar sahane... the sound of madness albumleri yillarca dinlenecek bir album...
• southern metal triplerine geri dondum... corrosion of conformity ve down'lardayim...
• yazmak iyi lan... rahatlatiyo insani...
• shinedown super grup...
• okul bitse de rahatlasak be birader...
• shinedown'in sound of madness ne gaz sarkidir...
  

Red Venomed Devil

she's dangerous, more than a snake
she's not priceless, feel free to take
red hair, red nails could be fake
but red lips won't help you to wake

from this beautiful dream, i feel alive
you take off her clothes but it's not enough
she lies to your face, don't fall in love
you'll be the one to suffer and she'll laugh, yeah

she makes my demons come back
she tears my skin apart
her venom heals my lust
but scars me on the inside
tastes sweet but burns your heart
smells nice but gets you high
talks smooth but makes you sleep
feels great but stings you in the end

her stories start pulling your strings
she makes out in the nick of time
presents you the best night of your life
you'll buy it cause she's the fucking Devil, man

living this beautiful dream, i feel alive
she's a killer, gets you out of the line
smiles to your face, you'll fall in love
her love is not endless but it could be mine, yeah

i opened my eyes to another reality one day
wearing thin of this sentimental things everyday
but this stunning thrill was not over yet
until the day i was out of her fucking debt

chronicles of an imbecile pt. 1

'movin' out is hard to do'... especially if you're one of those what they call 'skinny' people... the weight on your shoulders just gets heavier... you try to make it there in at least 1 time but deep inside, you know it won't happen... you just try to make it quick, trying to fill the car with the most... when you finish the job in 2 fill-drive-put-drives, you just feel a nice relief in your body... the satisfaction, the feeling that you've actually accomplished something that's considered to be 'big' feels great after some time...

but then you stop and think for a while; 'why do i always wait to do these things in the nick of time?'

well, no one knows...

this is the point... you wait until the last day to do homeworks, you wait until the last minute to study for the fucking exam... you just don't want to take that responsibility... you feel comfortable without having to do it the whole week... but when it's, what, fucking 01.00 am, you remember that you have a test in approximately 12 hours... then you ask yourself the 250,000 dollar question;

'should i sleep now and study in the morning or should i study now and sleep whenever?'

you usually start studying at that moment cause you don't wanna take any risks... you study until 03.00 am, then you ask yourself the 500,000 dollar question;

'now that i'm done with studying, should i take the risk of not waking up at 10 in the morning and, fuck it, just sleep or should i stay awake until the class starts and sleep like usual the next day?'

you then decide to sit up all night, killing some time with talking to people on MSN and skype, playing N (check it out, the greatest game ever; http://www.thewayoftheninja.org/) and trying to become a legend on PES2009... you surf and if that's still not enough, you play guitar and work more on your songs...

when the sun starts rising, you feel that you're really exhausted... you think of just sleeping for 3 hours for a moment, but then you ignore it... you really don't want to take the risk... you get out to the balcony, make yourself a coffee and light another cig... you watch people going to work... then, suddenly, you hear the sounds of your bones cracking... they're really tired as much as your brain...

you
feel
really
fucked
up...

you go to iTunes and start playing the song 'i own you'... one of the best songs you've heard in a long fucking time... since, what, waking the fallen came out? you lie on the couch and close your eyes...

you, the greatest imbecile ever (hence the name 'pure vacuity'), forget to set the fucking alarm...

...................... N1 → N2 → N3 → N2 → REM .........................

you wake up... you feel good and fresh... you open your eyes... you hear the music, still playing on iTunes... the same song is playing, it played it over and over again...

you remember you studied the previous night and you have a (goddamn) exam in...

you take a glance at the watch and... god help you brother...

it's fucking 02.00 pm!!!

you hear brent singing in the background;

hey, c'est la vie...

you black out...